I am very rarely caught off guard unless a tragedy happens. I am a pretty normal mom. I love my kids, but sometimes I just want to scream. Yesterday in fact I told a friend about an incident with one of my children: “I really could have slapped them”… ( I didn’t of course, I’ve never hit my kids… but I could see how it could happen!) Some days I get, well bored, with the same routine; up at 6:20 AM, breakfast, lunches, school, house work, my work, pick ups, activities, asking my son to take a shower 95 times until he finally does it… etc. I often think, as I did today, ” I guess this is it. This is the life I chose and it’s great. I have two great kids, a house I love, I am doing what I love, we have food…. but this is it.” It can be a hamster wheel.
Then tonight happened. Tonight was my sons end of the year football banquet for his team the Burbank Vikings. I was to sit at a different table, but kids over ran it. My son and I randomly sat with a few other players, a sister of one, and the parents of another. People think I am very out going. I’m not. Unless I know someone, I want to start drinking or go home. I have been braver as the years have passed and I started talking to the dad, Sean Moreno’s father. I think it started out with “I can’t believe this glass of wine was only $3″ He said: ” I know, this beer was only $3.50″…. The Elks Lodge man, they are AWESOME. We spoke for quite a while. I remember seeing him when football conditioning happened in August, but I never saw him at the games. Turns out, he is a forest ranger and is gone 6 days a week. He only sees his family one day a week…THINK ABOUT THAT…. He had accrued vacation days and is getting some time off until February 1, which is so wonderful. I remember this man when football just started. His son Sean had never played football, in fact his Sean is quite a baseball player. I believe some kind of an All Star. Played all his life. I remember his father being a bit nervous for his son at the beginning of the year. During the banquet his son was quiet, just sitting by his parents, very patient, never said a peep. All the boys at our table were very quiet and well behaved, and this think was long….
The Burbank Vikings lost one if it’s players in March, a true angel on Earth, Donnovan Castellanos. The “All Heart Never Quit Award”, in memory of Donnovan was awarded to Sean Moreno tonight. I have posted the link to the video on this page and the tribute to Donnovan Castellanos as pictures on this post. In the future I may rewrite it (with author credits) so it is clearer to read, but honestly I don’t think I could get through it with out breaking down. To Donnovan and his best friend Sean. Life can be horrific. There is absolutely no benefit to Donnovan being taken so early. There is NO beneficial explanation why his parents should have lost their son. All I know is Donnovan is and had always been an angel here on earth, and his best friend Sean, who played for him this year will never let the world forget him. My hope is that both the parents of Donnovan and Sean walk with their heads high and proud until the end of time as they raised AMAZING human beings.
I am grateful beyond words for my “hamster wheel” and I hope it never stops spinning.